It was a hard weekend spiritually and emotionally. I need to spend the week talking to the Lord about it, and sitting quietly at His feet. Discouragement is a good opportunity to remember what the Lord has done for us. He wants us to remember His mercies and works in our lives. Just remembering our salvation in Christ brings peace. Therefore, for the next few days, I’m going to be posting my testimony, to the praise of the glory of His grace.
The theme of my testimony is ‘searching’. I know that God is the one who seeks and finds His lost sheep, and brings them unto Himself. But the bible also speaks of people seeking after Him. I was saved by the Lord at the age of 17 after being raised Roman Catholic. The Lord has done great things for me, therefore I am glad. (from Ps.126:3.)
I was searching for many things as a teenager, and the Lord , the Living God, lovingly provided all that I was searching for. I was searching for truth. I wanted to know: What is the point of life? What is the true way in this life? I was in a religious family. Everyone in my town tried to follow the rules of religion because that is what everyone in our town did. It was just the culturally expected thing to try to follow all the rules and rituals of religion. It was tradition. I was told by the adults that if I was good, and followed all the rules and did all the rituals, then I would be ‘ok’ with God. I remember doing many kinds of good works and religious rituals to try to earn favor with God. I had a lot of pride in my good works. I thought I was a pretty good person, a good girl; very religious. I did every religious thing I could find to do. I knew that I was not close to God though. I knew these things did not bring me to God, and that is what I was trying to do: reach God through my own efforts.
A friend invited me to a camp that summer. I was 17 years old. The messages I heard there were different from the religious ritual and tradition I grew up with. They were talking about Jesus Christ. Each morning they sent us off with the Word of God, to read what God says to us. I had never done that before. I was reading the bible for the first time ever. I started to realize that the true way and meaning in life was about having a relationship with God through Jesus, rather than just being good, doing good works to earn God’s favor, or doing rituals. In all my unsuccessful effort to reach God, He was reaching down to me. He was drawing me near to Him.